They are in the middle of another interview and Chen has his signature smile plastered on his face. They’re talking about their album, he thinks.  At least that what he deduces from the snippets he manages to understand. But they might as well be saying blah blah blah MAMA blah blah blah because really, Chinese is still an alien language to him.

His peripheral view catches Luhan leaning over Xiumin, whispering rushed translations of the conversation. It’s one of those moments where he wishes that Tao had a little more initiative to help him out. But the self-proclaimed kungfu panda is too busy eyeing the plate of fruit in front of them. 

Chen sighs inwardly.

 

He is exhausted by the time they finish, too tired to say anything during the drive back to the dorm. So he settles for pulling out his iPod to listen to a Chinese For Beginners he downloaded online. He’s barely made any progress with his language modules, but the idea of listening to the audio tutorial until he actually learns something is rather a comforting thought.

It’s ten minutes into the How To Ask For Directions chapter when he feels their van sliding to a halt. “We’re here,” he hears Kris say, the others already but barely mustering enough energy to drag their tired limbs out of the vehicle and on to bed. Its been another long day.

Chen is the last one in, opting to take his time rather than rush to the dorm. He is greeted by the sight of Luhan sprawled over the sofa, mumbling complaints about hunger or exhaustion or both. Or he might be bemoaning how much he misses a certain maknae but Chen cant be sure, not when the singer is firing out rapid Chinese into the couch armrest.

Its Lay who notices him standing in the middle of the living room, looking quite dazed and unsure.

Jongdae-yah, are you okay? Lay asks. He is considerate enough to speak in Korean, a gesture Chen appreciates because hes too worn-out to process anything in Chinese. His vocal chords dont feel like cooperating so settles for a nod and a smile, allowing Lay to take his hand and lead him into the kitchen. 

Ill make us some dinner. Lay says. You must be tired from all the Chinese today. There is humor in his eyes but also an understanding that its been a hard day.

Thank you, Chen manages to say in Chinese, testing out his pronunciation. It earns him a surprised giggle from Lay, the sound coming out as a cute little laugh, and it makes Chen think that its a reward more than anything else. 

Lay gives him another smile and set out to prepare the ingredients of what seems to be omu rice. Chen moves to help but Lay stops him with a childish wave of his hand.  It feels a little embarrassing but Chen can only watch him fuss over vegetables and rice and savor the feeling of being taken cared of.


 If only for moments like this, Chen might just learn Chinese after all. 

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So I was walking to work this morning…

Yunho had a weakness for big eyes and pouty lips. That’s the reason why he fell into such a fatal attraction with his former bandmate, Kim Jaejoong, in the first place. An attraction that somehow led to a rather dangerous romance. But it had ended abruptly as three of the legendary TVXQ decided that they had enough of SM,leaving Yunho heartbroken but determined not to fall for big eyes and pouty lips ever again.

But life sometimes threw things at the unprepared us. And we can’t do anything but duck or let it hit us square in the face. That thing, life threw at Yunho came in the form of the biggest eyes and poutiest lips Yunho would ever see in his life, all belonging to a rather awkward boy named Kyungsoo.

With round saucer eyes and thick lips, awkward Kyungsoo had the perfect arsenal that could possibly bring the mighty Yunho to his knees.As such, the strong-willed leader could only hold on to Changmin as SM’s newest group EXO rushed over to introduce themselves, Kyungsoo shyly staring up at them with his big eyes and pouty lips. OH MY GOD OH MY GOD and a string of curses jumbled inside Yunho’s head as he tried not to look. Because looking somehow felt illegal and goddamn it was this boy even legal yet? 

But then he felt a tug on his sleeve and he was suddenly looking and looking and dear god he was screwed. Changmin could only snicker evilly beside him.

Obviously, I LOST MAAAAAH MIND. I really shouldn’t think about fandom while walking. :|
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It begins to sink in when the aircraft’s engine roars to life and he hears the audible ding of the seatbelt sign. It’s been years since his last plane ride so he can’t really remember the sensation of lift off. But as the plane hurtles towards the air, his mind barely registers the churning feeling in his stomach. This it, he thinks. We’re going to China.

He isn’t one for overanalyzing but he wonders if they should’ve been more prepared. The Korean showcase is deemed a success, but he remembers his mistakes, his awkwardness and…maybe he needs a few more days in the practice room. He’s only been a trainee for eleven months while most of his teammates have been preparing for years. His admission into SM has been a rush of vocal sessions, dance training and language classes, barely giving him enough time to process that yes, he is going to debut in SM’s latest group.

He has the voice, they tell him. And his chiseled features only add to the allure, the seduction when he performs. But somehow he finds himself singing in a language that he can’t grasp, can’t understand. He feels like a fraud he when can barely comprehend the lyrics.

But he isn’t Jongdae anymore, discarding the name for a Chinese identity. Chen. He is no longer Jongdae, the trainee. He is Chen, the lead singer of EXO-M. There is constant pressure to prove that he belongs with this group.

But then he feels Minseok’s head touch his shoulders, and somehow he feels like everything will be okay.

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Tohoshinki gets ready for their dome concert.

Yunho looks in the mirror and sees the person he’s become. The years have been a blur of singing and dancing. But he doesnt want it any other way. Theyve made it. 

Jaejoong looks in the mirror and sees the person he could be. The burning lights and deafening sounds have grown old and static. He just wants to feel alive again.

Junsu looks in the mirror and sees the person he doesnt want to be. The exhaustion and weariness are etched on his gaunt face. He doesnt think he can live like this any longer.

Yoochun looks in the mirror and sees the person he shouldnt be. Theres a taste of cigarettes and something else lingering in his mouth. And he really cant remember how he ended up this way.

Changmin looks in the mirror and sees the person he never expected to be. He feels the thundering cheers pounding against the walls and he wonders how long this will last. 

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Kyungsoo is all awkward smiles and stuttering, a habit borne of nervousness. It’s only beginning to sink that he’s been signed for SM’s newest group and he is happy. But there’s that lump in his throat and a worry that he isn’t good enough, isn’t prepared enough.

He has a golden voice, they tell him. But he hears Jongdae sing and really, how can he compare to that? Jongdae is confidence and cheekbones and Kyungsoo secretly breathes in relief, as Jongdae is renamed Chen and placed in EXO-M. At least, he will feel some sort of purpose.

Kyungsoo doesn’t say but he secretly idolizes Kim Jaejoong. The company has been hush hush about the rogue trio but Kyungsoo knows. Jaejoong is a dark knight with the angel voice and Kyungsoo longs to be half the singer that he is.

100-word Kyungsoo challenge amounted to this…whatever this is. OTL

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